Countdowns

Some countdowns you can't wait for, getting your drivers license, graduation, wedding day, arrival of a baby, however somethings are just not fun to countdown. As of today there is only 13 days left and the "cycle of deployment" has been in full force. I have shutdown emotionally and mentally, "just don't think about it or feel it", is how I begin my day. Once John is gone, I can start the "countdown" of when will I see him again. I plan to keep myself busy like going to the gym and keeping up on the house. "Exercise" is suppose to help keep a person, healthy mentally and physically. I guess I will have to get back to you with the results of that one in a couple of months. This year is FULL of countdowns, some I am excited to countdown too and some, well, I would like to just skip. In 13 days I say good-bye to lunches with my husband, splitting AJ's shower time, going to movies together, and most importantly the hugs we like to give each other. I will be counting down to the day in April that I can hug my husband again.